aww reminicing
Friday, December 25, 2009 12:01 AM
as part of the " I will start fresh vibe"I went through some of my stuff in my bedroom and I found
some of my diaries.. which I scribbled on for the past years...
when I look back.. It really makes me LOL hahaha real hard.. because some of the writings I can't read because there was one page I scribbled all my witting and I could hardly understand it myself
ohh the last organizer, still have the library card which I never used and Haziqah's locker key
ohh and I found one of my used to be malay kareoke favorite tracks.. and hahahaha as soon as we press play.. my baby sister and I started singing along..
ohh the good timess
Baby stuck sleeping on my bed last night.. ahhahaa I SUKA SUKA!!


NEW BLOGSKIN!!
Thursday, December 24, 2009 8:43 PM
does it look complicated??? JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT...SUITS THE TITLE!!hahaha sooo colorful!! I LIKE!!
I just realised that my blog's song weren't playing for the past few weeks maybe months? I don't know.. hahaha I only noticed it when I clicked play nothing happen.. It started with fixing the music section, and the music box won't fit right with the last blogskin.. yes I had to change it.. ahahaha well I've been meaning to change it for quite sometime now...
I want to start fresh..
really I do..
I won't ever let myself be so blinded by love.. esehh... *like thats gonna last long*
ohh!! I just love hearing the new blog song.. like Gixe said it.. I WANT TO DANCEEEEEEE!!! ahhaha..
okay I was suppose to do something.. I forget. I'll get back to that as soon as I finished blogging ahahha...
ohhh did I mention.I didn't realise today was THURSDAY AND IT NOT the 25th YET!!
aahhaa I only realised it just a few hours ago.. not so long ago when my sister hysterically jump *hyperbole* hahaha and asking me
"what day is today?" WEDNESDAY WHY?
ohh which reminds me.. OH WAIT!!! I did actually asked my baby the date today at 2ish smthing today.. I completely forgot.. hahahaha what is getting into me? ahhaahhaha
I must be remebering now what I was suppose to do
P/s my baby is missing her novio so badly.. and I don't want to disturb her.. kesiannnnnn
LATER!!!
5:54 PM
Assalamualaikum...
Baca jika anda ada masa untuk ALLAH.
Bacalah sehingga habis.
Saya hampir membuang email ini namun saya telah diberi keberkatan untuk membaca terus hingga ke penghujung.
ALLAH , bila saya membaca e-mail ini, saya fikir saya tidak ada masa untuk ini.... Lebih lebih lagi diwaktu kerja.
Kemudian saya tersedar bahawa pemikiran semacam inilah yang .... Sebenarnya, menimbulkan pelbagai masaalah di dunia ini.
Kita cuba menyimpanALLAH didalam MASJID pada hari Jumaat......
Mungkin malam JUMAAT?
Dan sewaktu solat MAGRIB SAJA?
Kita suka ALLAH pada masa kita sakit....
Dan sudah pasti waktu ada kematian...
Walau bagaimanapun kita tidak ada masa atau ruang untuk ALLAH waktu bekerja atau bermain?
Kerana... Kita merasakan diwaktu itu kita mampu dan sewajarnya mengurus sendiri tanpa bergantung padaNYA.
Semoga ALLAHmengampuni aku kerana menyangka......
Bahawa nun di sanamasih ada tempat dan waktu dimana ALLAH bukan lah yang paling utama dalam hidup ku. (nauzubillah)
Kita sepatutnya senantiasa mengenang akan segala yang telah DIA berikan kepada kita.
DIA telah memberikan segala-galanya kepada kita sebelum kita meminta. RENUNGKANLAH
Sebarkan lah seandaianya ANDA BENAR-BENAR MENGHAYATI!!!
Ya aku CINTA ALLAH
Dia adalah sumber kewujudanku dan Penyelamatku
IA lah yang mengerakkan ku setiap detik dan hari. TanpaNYA aku adalah HAMPASyang tak berguna.
Ini adalah ujian yang mudah.
Kalau anda benar meyintai ALLAH dan tidak berasa malu akan segala kebaikan yang telah diberi ALLAH kepada mu...
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Insomia?
1:46 AM

I'm still awake
it must be a sign to sleep now as the laptop charger just came loose just now ahhahaa
but I still feel the urge to blog now... ahaha
hmmmmm.. yessss based on the picture posted above.. I hereby declare I am an addict to playing games on Facebook.. hahaha yes the previous post said it all
I was actually going to sleep early because I was suppose to be going somewhere tommorow but it got cancelled at the last minute..
I'm actually quite hungry.. but I don't feel like going into the kitchen alone nor do I feel like eating alone...
I feel so numb... it started weeks weeks ago after I got back from the HRD... now I wished I never should have went there.. EVER!!! because of some reasons.. I find myself unmotivated, lost of enthusiasm to finish up my personal statement.. its done well not quite it not good enough....
I used to tell myself when I was a kid I wanted to be an engineer.. I don't know why but until I registered for MD career section. the counselor told me I need to have a credit on math which I clearly sucks!! hahaha
then learning sociology, gives me something to decide on my career. I wanted to help people.... but then it complicates thing.. so I wanted to be a social worker, a counselor, a shrink, a psychologist, something like that then it actually ask what kind of a social worker, what type.. and it goes on and on and on..... nobody said it was going to be easy but still nobody ever told me it was going to be this hard...
at this point... I really don't know what to do.. I keep on reminding myself.. it is okay to dream.. but dreams are not enough to fulfill it.. okay so I sounded depressed.. it's my future I'm talking about.. I really never wanted anything so badly.. *except when I go shopping, minus that* I want this.. I went through the Uni which does not require math as as one of the requirement of the course.. but when I finally found one.... the orientation will start as soon as the result came up.. which would be too late and enrollment for next batch will be on 2011..
I hate it sometime I feel like I'm missing something.. I'm not in love, love is when there is two individual sharing the mutual feeling. Am I right or am I right?I don't want to feel distracted.. quoted from anis
' I don't want love, you are not suppose to want it... you need it.... better to keep your options open'
and I feel pathetic sometime I do post corny stuff on my blog or my FB status like I'm a love drunk or something which I'm not...
I promised my girlfriend I will not do it again ever, ahahhaah maybe!! depends....
ohh My baby sister is missing her novio.. ahhaha we've been watching dvds to get her minds off missing him.. ahaha but it doesn't seem to work.. because all night we've just been watching chick flicks hahaha which clearly doesn't help the situation
ohh post grad movie??? it's a great movie.. but I don't know if I really do that in real life..
I told myself to never date my friends especially bestfriend. that could change, but not for now. I won't let love knocking at my heart.. I am not easy to please.. *I do not hook up* not that easily (LOL)
okay here I am babbling and whining... I REALLY MUST GO TO SLEEP NOW.. It is 2.10 am.. okayyy dark circles tomorrow will be so visible ahhaha... arivedarci for now
I WANT FREEDOM
Saturday, December 19, 2009 10:08 PM
I just realised nowdays whatever I say must end with me saying "pacah" which I frankly do not know what it meant!!
sleepover at kaklong day 2.. HAHAHAHA
here I am sitting in her room, ohh and updating my blog and tumblr.. how bored can I not be?

Tahun Baru Hijrah.. Dah pasang AZAM?
Thursday, December 17, 2009 11:23 PM
shopping trip?
11:00 PM
At 7 am, mum suddenly knocked on my door, and kept saying,
"bah bangun, jom th ke Tutong, ke tamu tani. shopping then"
I wasn't feeling the shopping vibe, as my back was aching from yesterday's randomness.. hehehe
Magical berabis the word 'Shopping'.. bangun ani tarus.. ahaha
ohh did I mention..I start the day checking my facebook account for my 'Cafe world'
I even sent a text message to my BFF if she is willing to play it for me while I'm away!! LOL
ohhh we reached Tutong at 9-ish.. Tamu Tutong was like.. CROWDED!! hahaha ntah apakah ada yg siuk sana ani.. heh.. udh atu..
I SAW THE SIGN 'NDA' and suddenly I remembered about this


BUT SADLY!! they were gonna be there in the afternoon.... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
so my baby sister and brother keep on saying "oh look a band once' and I will be like " eh mana?"
and they kept saying that sampai kami abis round2 there. and for the last time I sadly said' mum drg karang main ptg at 2 ni kali.. nahhh mana nada.. alaaaa.. mental ehh.. mana ni... laaaa sodihhhh ehh...." and my mother will go on like " ahh bahh..." ahahahah
and my two annoying siblings said " bah kan tunggu kah lagi"
while they were in Tutong. I was sleeping for rest of the noon..
Oh and now I'm currently downloading that korean movie 'You're beautiful' which Umu
Habbibah insisted I should watch on.. I THINK I'm IN LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE
and before I forget I would like to wish everyone a


and I need to get this certain song out of my head.. can't seem to stop singing it since I heard it from the radio this morning.
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